Mail Order Mood

It’s unfortunate but true – I enjoy the feeling of Valium and Xanax.  So much so that these days the only way I get to feel that blissful feeling is when I have a procedure that scares me and I request something from my Dr. The last time I had a valium was a few months ago when I was having some dental work done. I cracked up when I picked my prescription up – there was seriously only one tablet in the bottle. I didn’t even know they could prescribe just one. The next time I get to take a Xanax is in a few weeks when I get a colonoscopy, yay!  I don’t know if the Dr. can sense I like these little pills or what – the ass man (colon dr.) only prescribed one Xanax! His reason for picking Xanax instead of Valium is because the effect of Xanax doesn’t last as long as Valium. That was new to me. Bummer.

I used to order Valium and Xanax online.  It was about 14 years ago and I lived in California.  The packages were pretty reliable even though they came all the way from India.  Needless to say, I was taking way too many of those little pills. A few times, days would pass and I would wake up and think it was the same day. I was drinking Smirnoff vodka at the time as well. I am very lucky to be alive. Anyway, I was so addicted to these at the time I would wait for the mail person every day around the time of expected delivery. One day I missed the mail person, he had left a note on the door. I saw him down the street and I literally ran after him, I got my package.


My friends: Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda

March 18th.

Today’s question of the day: What advice were you given?

When I saw the question I was like, oh great. Just what I need. To be reminded of all the times I should have listened to people who knew what they were talking about. Well, things could be a lot worse and I am lucky to be alive.

I am just going to mention a couple of people I should have listened to and I will also mention people I did listen to.


  • Dad – when I was happier creating mischief and drinking with my friends in the early 80s. YOU should stay in those computer classes! (the ones I dropped out of.) I could be Bill Gates but I am glad I’m not. Another thing he mentioned more than once: YOU should join the service. Why don’t YOU join the air-force? I could have a career and a home, I also could be dead. I have a job and a roof over my head, it works and despite everything, I feel pretty good today. My dad died February the 24th in 2000.
  • Mom – so many things she wanted for me. One of the many is the blog thing. We had such a good time together and towards the end, it was the best of times. I would say hers were more of suggestions. She died May 1, 2014, worst day of my life.
  • Oma – in the early 80s when I was getting tattoos she said they make me look like a pirate and asked me what I thought they would look like when I was an Oma. These days all the young people that are getting tatted, you think they think about what their tattoos will look like in 20 years? Probably not. I now have what are called vintage tattoos. A young adult told me this.  VINTAGE. WTF?
  • A couple of really good friends – don’t bother calling us until YOU aren’t drunk and being an asshole. Best advice ever!

Pic is of my mom and dad back in 1965. This was taken in Wageningen, Holland.

Questions from: Get It Scrapped! Tami Taylor 365 Questions – a five year journal.

Below the Tropic of Cancer

Today’s question: Where did you go today?

One of the things I like about living on an island 44 miles long and 30 miles wide is that the drive is never far.  It does take longer to get from point A to B because of the traffic, mountains and winding roads. My job requires me to drive to most parts of the island and today I went to the west side, Kapolei. Specifically Down to Earth, a natural food store. It takes about 45 minutes and 1/2 of the drive is super scenic. Sometimes I can’t believe how green it gets.

I went to the post office to mail a couple letters. The main post office is close by (like a few blocks away) and our home delivery is spotty. I complained to the post office once. I’m like – we have no mail Mondays, what’s up with that? The lady at the post office said something about my building being at the end of the route and sometimes the mail people don’t have time to finish.  I had a couple suggestions, they probably laughed when they read them. When it rains and the mail doesn’t come we joke and say it’s because of the rain, like Newman in Seinfeld.

I walked over to CVS/Long’s to drop off a prescription and pick up one. Holy Shit – ha!  I picked up the container of stuff I have to drink before my colonoscopy, it’s more than a gallon of liquid. Ugh.

The last place I went today was for work as well.  I drove into Honolulu which usually takes about 30 minutes, today it took longer because it was around 6pm on a St. Patricks Day Friday. 

Now I am happy at home. I hear people partying over at the bar on the next street over.  I am so glad they don’t have they band that played last year. It was an 80’s cover band which was cool but the singer sucked!!! A good cover band singer at least sounds similar to the original.


** Questions are from: Get It Scrapped! Tami Taylor 365 Questions – a five year journal.**


I found motivation for writing so I am pretty stoked. 365 questions, one per day. Yay!

I found the questions at the site of, “Get It Scrapped! Tami Taylor 365 Questions – a five year journal.” 

Today’s is for the 16th: Did you seize any opportunities?

I guess small things are better than no things. I took advantage of some extra time and paid my car payment. I bought expensive envelopes ($3.99 for 45 #10 security) because they were out of the lick ones at CVS/Longs.  For some crazy reason I let the Dr. schedule an appointment for a mammogram tomorrow, Friday. I called the mammogram people and told them if they were going to press my b**bs in that scary ass machine I couldn’t deal with it tomorrow. So I postponed it for another week and will ask my Dr. for something to help me deal. Lastly, I did all my laundry. I live in an apartment building and we only have 3 washers and 4 dryers for a lot of people, it’s rare when there is no one in the laundry room.

The photo is the view off of my lanai. It’s Kawainui Marsh and vog around the mountains.