Perfect Snacks for a Cold Day

Daily writing prompt
What snack would you eat right now?

Today is one of those days where I am just cold. I had tomato soup for breakfast to help warm myself up.

It’s now about mid morning and I need a snack. I am still cold!

Some fresh warm sourdough bread that is super crusty on the outside an soft on the inside. I like hot dips.A hot artichoke spinach dip and a warm french onion dip sounds lovely. I was also thinking of a spicy warmed up pesto as well for dipping.

For my mid morning beverage I will have a hot cocoa. It’s a perfect sweet treat to eat with my bread and dips.

A warm fireplace for my feet would top off this morning.

Happy Monday!

Reflecting on Past vs Future: A Personal Journey

Daily writing prompt
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

If I had to choose which one I think about more – future or past? I would pick past – it’s been a challenge for me for a very log time. …like my entire life. I am always wondering what would have happened if…..I would have said. Should I have? Could there have been? Shoulda, Woulda and Coulda right?They used to be my best friends. Now they are just good friends and hopefully soon – distant friends.

Someone said something to me over about a week ago that totally changed how I think about this!!!

We were on a pet sit last week and we were having dinner with the pet parents. I was talking about this dilemma I have with thinking about the past. and what would have or could have happened. The pet dad said something profound.”What if what would’ve happened, happened and what if the outcome wasn’t what you wanted?” I had never ever thought of that part actually. I play the tape in my head through all the time if I am contemplating having an alcoholic drink. Why I didn’t in this situation? Who Knows.

But now – here is what has changed. My dad told me all the time I lacked discipline and he always thought I should join the military. Often I think how mu life would have been different if I would have joined? It’s always sunny but in reality. I could have died, I could have started my drinking career later in life which could have been devastating. So many outcomes that “could have” happened. Then I look at my feet. I think about where I am at the time and all the things I have done leading up to this. I am good! Not only good, pretty amazed and grateful for all the things that got me here now.

My reviews: Dave’s Nuttz

I was so excited when I saw these at the dispensary. I don’t necessarily love hazelnuts but these are a completely different story. They are so tasty and the chocolate/hazelnut combo reminds of Toffifay candy, my mom used to eat those all the time.

These are available in Milk Chocolate as well.

It’s a great treat, just a hazelnut covered with chocolate and a tiny bit of salt.

I haven’t tried any other confections from Space Cake Dave but I am definitely keeping an eye out for any of his products.
The effects are great. Giggles and appetite included.
I always make sure to have these in the house, I can no longer live without them.

Thank you for reading – these are just my opinions here.

Overcoming Fear of Heights: My Elevator Dilemma

I don’t like going up in elevators to site seeing platforms – like the Space Needle, Stratosphere or Eiffel Tower and once I get up there, I freeze. The only thing that would get me to do it is Valium, Xanax or alcohol. Doing any of those would probably ruin the experience for me so those are out.

I could try hypnosis?

Daily writing prompt
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

Transforming Regret into Positive Change

Why? It’s done. That ship has sailed. A lot of the mistakes I have learned from are in the past, I like them there as memories. I used to drink a lot of alcohol and I always would do or say something I regretted. I was just thinking about how that hasn’t happened lately because I haven’t had a drink in quite some time. Even not being drunk and doing or saying something you regret is rough. You go over the conversation or action over and over again in your head and there is really no reason why except to make you feel worse that you did in the first place. You can’t change what happened at this point.

I am working on changing my thinking and how I do that is by creating a future that I love thinking about. I have goals and plans that now occupy my mind so I have no time to think about something stupid I did or said a year ago. I had not really thought about how little I have been thinking about the past until I wrote this post. Now that is a beautiful thing.

Daily writing prompt
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

Warmth and Sunshine: The Key to Happiness

I am most happy when it’s warm and sunny. I love sunny days. It doesn’t even have to be super warm, I just like the sun. It makes everything so much better to me. I feel better physically and mentally when it’s sunny. I have skip in my step when it’s sunny. My happiest days are warm and sunny. I love being warm so the two, sun and warmth are the best to me. I like the feeling of the sun on my skin and I look a lot healthier when I have been in the sun.

Sunshine on my shoulders feels so lovely, sunshine in my eyes makes me smile.

It’s fall, the mornings have been cold and foggy. The days cold and wet.

I have a sun lamp, I use it a lot. It seems to help.

Good grief, winter hasn’t even started yet.

I am going to get a blanket.

Daily writing prompt
When are you most happy?

Memories of TV Shows from My Childhood

I watched a lot of tv growing up. I feel like I still do, too much.

I don’t really remember watching TV with my parents together. I do remember watching TV with them separately after they were divorced. My dad loved watching Mutual of Omaha – it was like a wilderness show and since he love watching it I watched it too. I think it’s an insurance company now. We would watch Dr Who, the old school one and Dark Shadows too. We watched The Little Rascals and The Three Stooges and we would laugh, he was a cannabis smoker so it was fascinating watching him smoke and get the giggles.

After my parents got divorced and I moved in with my mom, I was alone a lot. She worked two jobs so I watched tv even more before I got into high school. I loved The Twilight Zone, The Six Million Dollar Man, Charlie’s Angels, Wonder Woman, Little House on the Prairie, Happy Days, Laverne and Shirley, The Bionic Woman, and the “after school” specials were always fun. My dad is black so I would watch, What’s Happening and Good Times to connect to that side of my family. My mom is Dutch and in the summer I went to Holland and they only had about 3 channels that only started later in the afternoon, it was so different. Most of the main evening shows were American or British and there were a few Dutch shows I really enjoyed. The channels were: Nederland 1, 2 and 3! There were a few German channels and I think a Belgian one too.

We had a black and white tv for a long time and then finally got a color one. I remember the first remotes were huge with those big buttons to click. Those were some fun times. Better shows then for sure and it annoys me greatly when they do “remakes”.

Thank you for the prompt. That was a nice trip down memory lane.

Daily writing prompt
What TV shows did you watch as a kid?

Grateful for the Little Things: How Gratitude Brings Happiness

I started practicing gratitude after I quit drinking. I am pretty sure that before I quit drinking I didn’t even know what gratitude was! Over the years it seems as I get older I have more gratitude. I am just super grateful for a lot of stuff and it makes me happy when I think about those things. I am grateful for my job even though I don’t like being there most of the time. I am so grateful for my parents even though they are both gone. I am grateful for my home, my boyfriend, my friends and family. The water that we have access to in our apartment is a beautiful thing, I love taking baths! I have a bathtub. I have a balcony and I saw a hummingbird when I was out on it the other day. My bank account is positive. It’s been sunny and warm and summer in the PNW isn’t always like that. Lots of food in the refrigerator. I could go on and on.

This habit really helps keep me feeling positive. I have also noticed as the years go by I find so many more things to be grateful for. Sometimes my list is so intense it makes me cry but they are not sad tears just tears of appreciation.

So for me just this small habit, brings me a whole lot of joy and can add a little skip to my step if I am feeling down.

Daily writing prompt
Describe one habit that brings you joy.

Are My Deceased Parents Watching Over Me? Sign from Beyond

My parents have both passed away. I am always curious if they are still around somehow watching over me. I talk to them a lot, just in case they are. Sometimes if I see birds, butterflies or lady bugs hanging out for a bit I think it’s one of them saying hello.

I would never go visit a medium or anything like that because I feel that if they were around and wanted me to know, it would be something that would be able to happen without a “third party”.

For now, I continue to talk to them, just knowing in my heart they are listening works for me.

Daily writing prompt
What are you curious about?

My reviews: Hippy Chicken purchased at Blue Dream in Portland, OR.

I love to look at these buds. I love their structure and the colors are so pretty. Nice and frosty too. More fluffy than dense.
Nice sweet and earthy flavor on this one. I love it when it’s earthy and it leaves that flavor in your mouth. Lately it’s been hard to find bud like that.
A really nice shade of purple leaves on this one. After smoking, it left me happy, smiling and giggling a lot. I love that!
I will have to get this strain again if it comes around because I really enjoyed it. One of the reviews I read said it had almost psychedelic effects, I definitely did not feel any of that but it did make me quite happy. For $25 can’t beat it.

My opinions only here – thanks for stopping by and reading.