If I had to choose which one I think about more – future or past? I would pick past – it’s been a challenge for me for a very log time. …like my entire life. I am always wondering what would have happened if…..I would have said. Should I have? Could there have been? Shoulda, Woulda and Coulda right?They used to be my best friends. Now they are just good friends and hopefully soon – distant friends.
Someone said something to me over about a week ago that totally changed how I think about this!!!
We were on a pet sit last week and we were having dinner with the pet parents. I was talking about this dilemma I have with thinking about the past. and what would have or could have happened. The pet dad said something profound.”What if what would’ve happened, happened and what if the outcome wasn’t what you wanted?” I had never ever thought of that part actually. I play the tape in my head through all the time if I am contemplating having an alcoholic drink. Why I didn’t in this situation? Who Knows.
But now – here is what has changed. My dad told me all the time I lacked discipline and he always thought I should join the military. Often I think how mu life would have been different if I would have joined? It’s always sunny but in reality. I could have died, I could have started my drinking career later in life which could have been devastating. So many outcomes that “could have” happened. Then I look at my feet. I think about where I am at the time and all the things I have done leading up to this. I am good! Not only good, pretty amazed and grateful for all the things that got me here now.
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