MotIvatIon

I found motivation for writing so I am pretty stoked. 365 questions, one per day. Yay!

I found the questions at the site of, “Get It Scrapped! Tami Taylor 365 Questions – a five year journal.” 

Today’s is for the 16th: Did you seize any opportunities?

I guess small things are better than no things. I took advantage of some extra time and paid my car payment. I bought expensive envelopes ($3.99 for 45 #10 security) because they were out of the lick ones at CVS/Longs.  For some crazy reason I let the Dr. schedule an appointment for a mammogram tomorrow, Friday. I called the mammogram people and told them if they were going to press my b**bs in that scary ass machine I couldn’t deal with it tomorrow. So I postponed it for another week and will ask my Dr. for something to help me deal. Lastly, I did all my laundry. I live in an apartment building and we only have 3 washers and 4 dryers for a lot of people, it’s rare when there is no one in the laundry room.

The photo is the view off of my lanai. It’s Kawainui Marsh and vog around the mountains. 

Illegal fireworks, I think not!

This is the second year at our current apartment. Last year we* sort of saw the fireworks in Honolulu through the Ko’olau mountains. This year it was insane, they started early.  Loud ass booms that seriously made me scream and jump. My neighbors** were lighting them off in the parking lot next door. They had been selling fireworks out of the back of their white Bronco (which has tags that expired in 2015) so they had a ton of them. Our back window looks over the parking lot and we are on the third floor so I’m always checking out what’s going on out there.

Anyway, they started early and lit off a ton of fireworks.  I was sitting on our bed working and the smell of sulfur totally came up into our place. I seriously thought my clothes were going to smell. At midnight we went onto the lanai and watched a bunch go off and by 12:30am, it was quiet. I guess you can get a permit to light them even though they are illegal.

Today was uneventful. We went out to get coffee and all the food places were full of people. I live with my boyfriend in a beach town where tourists visit. Most of the year is busy but winter and summer especially. The town is growing and new stores are opening (and closing) often. I love living here because I feel comfortable being far away from the dog-eat-dog environment on the mainland. In our last place here we didn’t even lock our front door.  That’s not saying nothing happens here, theft is huge, especially cars (on an island!?) there are a ton of homless and mentally ill people roaming and living on the streets because there are no facilities for them. They shut them down and meanwhile (I read somewhere yesterday) welfare recipients here average $29 per hour and the state minimum wage just got raised to $9.25 per hour. It was $8.25!!!  I have never lived in a place where the state is so sloppily run before but I enjoy the weather and people are beyond friendly.

I am going to prepare for tomorrows work day so I start the new year off right. I’m glad I woke up today. I have a place to live, a positive bank account and food in my fridge. A lot more than some people have.

*When I say we I am referring to my live with boyfriend, Dallas.  We’ve been together about 9 years even though I am still married to someone else. We broke up way before I met Dallas and have both been lazy about the divorce.

**I have a bunch because I live in an apartment building. These particular neighbors we call the hillbillies because they have a dad, two adult children, a girlfriend and 4 kids living in a large studio. The mom used to live with them but she left about 6 months ago. My landlord  knows but he likes to help people and they are saving to move. They had the money but got robbed. That’s a whole ‘nother story.

Perspective Helps.

Every time Dallas goes into the kitchen to cook I hear him say how thankful he is for our pots and pans.  It’s because when we moved from our last place to our current place we got rid of a lot of stuff, pots and pans included.  It seems like since we lived here (Oahu) it’s been feast or famine.  After we moved we were broke and a friend gave us a small frying pan and a huge pot.  We had been using them since November and we just got a new 16 pc  set a month ago.  Thank you, Rianna!  Cooking more than one thing had to be planned carefully or some foods we just didn’t cook.  I’m happy too because I get to eat a lot more variety.  I am so glad we are thankful for the little things like pots and pans.  Don’t get me wrong, I’d be stoked if  could be thankful for other things, like financial security and one day I will be, but for now – it is what it is.  I saw on social media earlier that Kendall & Kylie Jenner got matching Ferrari Spiders and it made me giggle, I wonder what they’re thankful for?

9/11/16

I am thinking about how I feel pretty good. I can see the Pali Hwy from my bed and am watching the car lights going in and out of Kailua. The sky is so dark right now it blends in with the mountains and it’s just black and sinister.  It’s been rainy and hot and like I say daily, I’ve never sweated so much in my life.

I woke up this morning to a lame dream, the most horrible part was seeing my dad laying naked in the driveway with a leg missing, someone else was there, I don’t know who it was.  It was at our house in Hermosa Beach on Gentry. It kind of put a funk in my mood so I’ve been been watching Snapped and cleaning out my inbox, unsubscribing to all the jackass mail.