Live and Let Live
I don’t like going up in elevators to site seeing platforms – like the Space Needle, Stratosphere or Eiffel Tower and once I get up there, I freeze. The only thing that would get me to do it is Valium, Xanax or alcohol. Doing any of those would probably ruin the experience for me so those are out.
I could try hypnosis?
Why? It’s done. That ship has sailed. A lot of the mistakes I have learned from are in the past, I like them there as memories. I used to drink a lot of alcohol and I always would do or say something I regretted. I was just thinking about how that hasn’t happened lately because I haven’t had a drink in quite some time. Even not being drunk and doing or saying something you regret is rough. You go over the conversation or action over and over again in your head and there is really no reason why except to make you feel worse that you did in the first place. You can’t change what happened at this point.
I am working on changing my thinking and how I do that is by creating a future that I love thinking about. I have goals and plans that now occupy my mind so I have no time to think about something stupid I did or said a year ago. I had not really thought about how little I have been thinking about the past until I wrote this post. Now that is a beautiful thing.
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