I am just looking back at when I wrote last. I started the process of tapering off of Zoloft last year. April 4 was my first day completely off. May was horrible. I thought with the year taper it wouldn’t be that bad. I was so wrong. I felt like shit most days. I couldn’t jump, run, or hike. I was nauseous all the time. If I moved too quickly, especially my head it was like my brain couldn’t keep up with the movement. My body hurt and I didn’t think I would ever feel better again. Thank goodness I do. I started on 25 mg of Zoloft and worked my way up to 150 mg over the course of about 3 years. Then I started my taper, it was about 10% less per month I took. I started taking Zoloft at the suggestion of my shrink. I was so sad all the time, couldn’t get out of bed. Thought I was going to die every moment of the day. Zoloft helped me not feel that way anymore and so far, those feelings haven’t come back.
I told my doctor I was doing the taper so she prescribed Wellbutrin to help with the withdrawal. Unfuckingbelievable. The bad part is I am taking it so now I want to get off of it as well. The lame thing is that I am on the extended release pills and I can’t just cut them down to taper. Apparently, if you cut them in 1/2 they are no longer extended release and that jacks everything up. So I will be making a trip to the doctor to let her know that was the worst I have felt on a daily basis since I quit drinking. I wonder how much of a kick back they get from the pharmaceutical companies? This time if she suggests something else I will decline. I am doing pretty good with fish oil and Ashwagandha. It should be interesting how she recommends I taper off Wellbutrin.
The paper lady has been a lot quieter but she’s still out there every morning and could give no shits about what the landlord says or if she is bothering anyone. It sucks too because our landlord is so nice. This woman once paid her rent in $1 bills and I know her rent is at least $1300. They have a couple kids living in their studio and they are not in school for some reason. I saw her coming in the other day, it was still dark but it was about 6 am and she had 2 extra large candy bars in her hand. I don’t have any kids but I don’t think it’s a good example to set for your grandkids that candy bars are good for breakfast, especially if they are sturdy in the first place.
We decided we’re gonna move. Not because of the neighbors but we’re going back to the mainland. More of everything over there. If I were 25 years younger living here would be ok but I am not. I want to be able to drive more than 50 miles to get somewhere. I want to be able to shop online and not see the *we don’t ship to Hawaii or *prices do not apply if you’re in Hawaii. I want to live somewhere where it’s not so expensive. I can’t save anything and it sucks. Also, I seem to be complaining a lot lately and it’s because I am unhappy. Soon it will change.